Monthly Archives: November 2013

Thanks-living

Thinking about being thankful.

Recently within the last few months we have ministered to some fifty people, most of them successfully. I also know of five people (Beth says more) that have prayed to receive Christ and have become new Christians in our work. The number could be as high as ten. I also

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remember two healings that we didn’t even pray for which happened while we ministered or taught. Many Words of Knowledge, and some Prophecy encouraging people. Just wanted to mention the fruitfulness of what we have seen God doing together through Deliverance Ministries Group.  All of these things I am thankful for and to each person who has prayed. Dr. CK Quarterman

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Shadow person, shadow being, or Hat man

Is a paranormal entity or demon. A number of legends, describe shadowy spiritual beings which oppress people sometimes haunting a place. Reported experiences include  sleep paralysis, illusions, and hallucinations. They are dark silhouettes with human shapes and profiles that flicker in and out of peripheral vision, and they are sometimes claimed to “jump on peoples chest and choke them”. They can be repelled by using “the name of Jesus.”

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Groupings in Deliverance

NAME ___________________________     DELIVERANCE GROUPS  ­­     ________________    Page 1 

ABANDONMENT

__   __     Desertion

__   __     Isolation

__   __     Loneliness

__   __     Not Acceptable

__   __     Not Belonging

__   __     Not Wanted

__   __     Rejection

__   __     Self Pity

__   __     Victimization

 

ADDICTIONS / ESCAPISM /

DEPENDENCIES

__   __     Alcohol

__   __     Caffeine

__   __     Computers

__   __     Downers/Uppers

__   __     Food

__   __     Gambling

__   __     Games

__   __     Marijuana

__   __     Nicotine

__   __     Pornography

__   __     Non-Rx drugs

__   __     Rx Drugs

__   __     Spending

__   __     Sports

__   __     Street Drugs

__   __     Television

__   __     Tranquilizers

__   __     Workaholism

 

ANGER w/ SIN

__   __     Abandonment

__   __     Feuding

__   __     Frustration

__   __       Grudges

__   __     Hatred

__   __     Murder

__   __     Punishment

__   __     Rage

__   __     Resentment

__   __     Spoiled Child

__   __     Temper Tantrums

 

ANXIETY

__   __     Burden

__   __     Dread

__   __     False Responsibility

__   __     Fatigue

__   __     Heaviness

__   __     Intimidation

__   __       Nightmares

__   __     Nervousness

__   __     Restlessness

__   __     Weariness

__   __     Worry

 

 

BITTERNESS / UNFORGIVING

__   __     Accusation              / Blame

__   __     Complaining

__   __       Murmuring

__   __     Criticalness / Ridicule

__   __     Fault Finding

__   __     Gossip / Judging

__   __     Homicide

__   __     Murder

__   __     Resentment

__   __     Passive aggression

__   __     Pride

__   __     Retaliation/ Revenge

__   __     Torment

__   __     Wrath

COMPETITION w/  SIN

 __  __Self-exaltation

_   __     Jealousy

__  __  Possessiveness

__   __     Striving

 

CONTROL, ILLIGITIMATE

__   __     Ahab or Jezebel Spirit

__   __     Appeasement

__   __     Domineering

__   __     Double Binding

__   __     False Responsibility

__   __     Faked Illnesses

__   __     Manipulation or Anger

__   __     Male dominance

__   __     Matriarchal Control

__   __     Mind Control

__   __     Occult

__   __     Passive Aggression

__   __     Possessiveness

__   __     Pride (I know best)

__   __     Selfishness

__   __     Witchcraft

__   __     Withholding

 

DECEPTION / LYING

__   __     Confusing the facts

__   __     Self-Deception

__   __     Crooked Communication

__   __     Twisting the truth

 

DEPRESSION

__   __     Despair

__   __     Despondency

__   __     Discouragement

__   __     Hopelessness

__   __     Insomnia

__   __     Oversleeping

__   __     Self Pity

__   __     Suicide Attempt
__   __     Suicide Fantasies

__   __     Withdrawal

 

EATING DISORDERS

__   __     Anorexia

__   __     Binge Eating

__   __     Bulimia

__   __     Gluttony

 

ESCAPE

__   __     Disassociation

__   __       Fantasy Escape

__   __     Forgetfulness
__   __       Hiding

__   __     Lethargy / Laziness

__   __     Passivity

__   __     Procrastination

__   __     Sleep/Slumber

__   __     Withdrawal

 

FAILURE

__   __     Performance

__   __     Pressure to Succeed

__   __     Striving

__   __     Falling / in  Ministry

 

FEARS

__   __       Allergies
__   __     Anxiety / Loss

__   __     Bewilderment

__   __     Burden

__   __       Darkness

__   __     Harassment

__   __     Heaviness

 

__   __     Mental Torment __   __     Over-Sensitivity

__   __       Panic / Phobia

__   __     Paranoia

__   __     Superstition

__   __     Worry

__   __     Fear of Attack

__   __     Fear of Authorities

__   __     Fear of Cancer

__   __     Fear of Death

__   __     Fear of Diabetes

__   __     Fear of Demons

__   __     Fear of Evil

__   __     Fear of Failure

__   __       Fear of Fear
__   __       Fear of Foods
__   __       Fear of the Future

__   __     Fear of Infirmities

__   __     Fear of Leaving the house

__   __     Fear of Man

__   __       Fear of Marriage

__   __     Fear of Performing

__   __     Fear of Punishment

__   __     Fear of Rejection

__   __     Fear of Sexual Issues

__   __     Fear of Singing

__   __     Fear of Public Speaking

__   __     Fear of Success / Leading

__   __     Fear of Victimization

__   __     Fear of Violence

 

FINANCIAL BONDAGE__   __     Covetousness

__   __     Fraud / Extortion

__   __     Greed / Debt

__   __     Envy / Jealousy

__   __     Illegal Business Practices

__   __     Job Failures / Losses

__   __     Poverty / Lack

__   __     Robbing God’s Tithe

__   __     Spending Addiction

__   __       Spirit of Baal

__   __     Stinginess

__   __     Theft / Shop Lifting

__   __     Tax Evasion / Avoidance

               

GRIEF, SPIRIT OF__   __     Crying / Weeping

__   __     Heartbreak

__   __     Loss

__   __     Sadness / Sorrow

__   __     Trauma   

 

IDOLATRY

__   __     Appearance/Clothes

__   __       Approval

__   __     Marriage/Children

__   __     Money/Position

__   __     Possessions

 

INFIRMITIES/DISEASES

__   __       ADD / ADHD

__   __       Allergies / EI / MCS

__   __       Auto-Immune Illness
__   __       Barrenness / Sterility

__   __       Bone Diseases

__   __       Cancers

__   __       Defects
__   __       Diabetes

__   __       Disability

__   __       Endocrine Disorders
__   __       Eye Problems

__   __       Fatigue, CFS

__   __        Female Problems__   __        Gastric disorders

__   __        Headaches / Migraines

__   __        Hearing Problems

__   __        Heart Disease / Attacks

__   __        Immune Illnesses

__   __        Lung Disease

__   __        Male Problems
__   __        Mental Illness

__   __        Miscarriages
__   __        MS or MD

__   __        Neurological Problems

__   __        Osteoporosis / Arthritis

__   __        Premature Death

__   __        Rheumatoid / Arthritis
__   __        Seizures / Epilepsy

__   __        STD / HIV

__   __        Strokes

 

 

 

 

JEALOUSY

__   __       Envy

__   __     Competition

__   __     Comparison

__   __     Materialism

__   __     Idolatry

 

JUDGMENTAL

__   __      Blame

__   __      Condemnation

__   __      Criticalness

__   __      Fault Finding

               

MENTAL ILLNESS

__   __      Alzheimer’s

__   __      Bipolar / Depression

__   __      Brain disease

__   __      Obsession / Compulsion

__   __      Confusion / Senility

__   __      Hysteria

__   __      Insanity

__   __      Psychoses

__   __      PTSD

__   __      Suicide

__   __      Schizophrenia

__   __          Delusions

__   __          Hallucinations

__   __          Paranoia

 

MIND INFLUENCES

__   __       Captivity

__   __       Double Minded

__   __       Humanism

__   __       Mind Binding / Blocking

__   __       Racing

__   __       Ruminating

               

MUSIC

__   __        Heavy Metal

__   __        Adulterous or Addictive

__   __        Rap (if sinful)

 

MUTED, PASSIVITY

__   __     Apathy, not caring

__   __        Denial, pretending

__   __        Blame shifting

__   __        Avoidance, silenced

__   __        Intimidated, disable

__   __        Not active, not involved

__   __        Not fighting back

__   __        Giving up, backing down

 

NAME ___________________________     DELIVERANCE GROUPS                                             Page 2 

OCCULT

__   __       Accident Prone

__   __       Antichrist

__   __       Astral Projection

__   __       Astrology

__   __       Automatic Writing

__   __       Back Lash Curses

__   __       Black / White Magic

__   __       Books; Occult
__   __       Burial Ground Spirits

__   __     Clairvoyance

__   __     Crystal Ball

__   __     Death/Suicide

__   __     Dispatching Demons

__   __     Eight Ball

__   __     ESP / Remote Viewing

__   __     False Gifts

__   __     Fortune Telling

__   __     Gang Control / Arien

__   __       Handwriting Analysis

__   __     Horoscopes
__   __     Harry Potter ______

__   __     I Ching

__   __     Indian Spiritism

__   __     Jewelry, Occult

__   __     KKK / Nazi / Hitler

__   __     Levitation
__   __     Mafia Control

__   __     Masonic Control

__   __     Mental Telepathy

__   __     Movies: Demonic
__   __       Music – Heavy Metal

__   __     Necromancy

__   __       New World Order

__   __       Non-Christian Exorcism

__   __     Ouija Board

__   __     Pagan Temples

__   __     Palm Reading

__   __     Past Life Readings

__   __     Pendulum

__   __     Program/Mind Control

__   __     Psychic Healing / TM

__   __     Root Doctors

__   __     Santeria

__   __     Sci-Fi, Demonic

__   __       Scientology

__   __     Séances / Altered states

__   __     Secret Societies

__   __     Shamanism

__   __     Spell or Hex Casting

__   __     Spirit Guides / trances

__   __     Spiritism / Sorcery

__   __     Tarot Cards

__   __     Tea Leaf Reading

__   __     Victim of Occult
__   __       Twilight / Vampires

__   __     Voodoo

__   __     Water Witching

__   __     Wicca, Witchcraft

__   __       Yoga Meditation

 

OCCULT , SATANISM

__   __       Deception / Lies
__   __       Covens / Cults

__   __       Fractured Identity

__   __     Illuminati / Cosmic

__   __       Luciferian, Reptilian

__   __       Mind Control

__   __       MPD / DID / PTSD

__   __       Programming

__   __       Rituals / Orgies

__   __       Ritual Sacrifices

__   __       Sadism / Masochism

__   __       Satanic Ritual Abuse

PERFECTIONISM

__   __     Fear of Man

__   __     Performs for acceptance

__   __     Procrastination
__   __     Self Importance

__   __     Shrikism

__   __     Self-Righteousness

__   __     Workaholism

PRIDE

__   __     Arrogance

__   __     Exalted “I Will”

__   __       “I know best”

__   __       Leviathan / Behemoth

__   __     Self-importance

__   __       Self-promotion

__   __       Vanity / Conceit

 

REBELLION

__   __     Defiance
__   __     Disobedience

__   __     Gangs / cults

__   __     Impulsivity

__   __     Independent spirit

__   __     Insubordination

__   __     Jezebel Spirit

__   __     Lying / Deception

__   __       Obstinance / Resistance
__   __     Passive aggression

__   __     Self-will

__   __     Self-sufficiency

__   __     Stubbornness

__   __     Undermining

__   __     Undisciplined

 

REJECTION

__   __     Divorce / Separation

__   __     Mistrust of Others

__   __     Mistrust by Others

__   __     Not Wanted

__   __     Perceived Rejection

__   __     Perfectionism

__   __     Prejudice/Slavery

__   __     Self-Rejection

__   __     Sexism

__   __     Shut Down Emotions

 

RELIGIOUS SPIRITS

__   __     Antichrist
__   __     Comparison / Criticism

__   __     Competition

__   __     Cults

__   __       Denominational Spirits

__   __     Emotionalism

__   __     Fake Manifestations

__   __       False Religions

__   __     Fixing people

__   __     Glories in Performance

__   __     Intolerance of other styles

__   __     Legalism / Rules

__   __     Liberalism

__   __     Mechanical prayer life

__   __     New Age / Humanism

__   __     Oppose New Movements

__   __     One-upmanship

__   __     Overreacts to Immaturity

__   __     Plays Holy Spirit

__   __     Quenches the Holy Spirit

__   __       Religious Persecution

__   __     Self-righteousness

__   __     Sexism

__   __     Spiritual Abuse

__   __     Traditionalism

__   __     Worship without Life

 

SELF-ACCUSATION

__   __     Anger

__   __     Guilt

__   __     Inferiority

__   __     Self-abuse / destruction

__   __     Self-blame

__   __     Self-condemnation

__   __       Self-elimination

__   __     Self-doubt

__   __     Self-hatred

__   __     Self-mutilation / cutting


SEXUAL CONFUSION

__   __     Addictions

__   __     Homosexuality / Lesbianism

__   __     Perversion /  Transvestite

__   __     Trauma / Molestation

 

SEXUAL SINS

__   __     Adultery / Philandering

__   __     Bestiality

__   __     Demonic Sex

__   __     Defilement / Unclean

__   __     Exposure / Strip tease

__   __     Fantasy Lust

__   __     Frigidity

__   __     Incest / Molestation

__   __     Lust / Internet Lust

__   __     Masturbation Addiction

__   __     Orgies

__   __     Pedophilia

__   __     Pornography

__   __     Premarital Sex / Fornication

__   __     Prostitution

__   __     Rape

__   __     Satanic Ritual Sex

__   __     Seduction /Allure

__   __     Sexual Abuse

 

SHAME

__   __     Anger with sin

__   __     Bad Boy/Girl

__   __     Condemnation

__   __     Defective / Less Than

__   __     Embarrassment

__   __     Guilt / False Guilt

__   __     Humiliation
__   __     Over / Under Weight

 

STRIFE

__   __     Arguing/Bickering

__   __     Contention

__   __     Cursing / Ridiculing

__   __     Fighting / Quarreling

__   __     Manipulation / Control

__   __     Mocking / Laughing at

__   __     Pressuring

 

 

TRAUMA / ABUSE

__   __       Abuse of all kinds

__   __     Accidents

__   __     Amnesia / Shut down

__   __       Assault

__   __     Bullying

__   __     Bad Little Boy / Girl

__   __     Loss / Unprotected

__   __     Mental Cruelty

__   __       Nightmares

__   __       Rape

__   __     Shock

__   __     Violence

 

UNBELIEF

__   __       Agnostic / Atheist

__   __     Doubt

__   __     Intellectualism/ Rationalism

__   __     Deaf and dumb

__   __     Skepticism

 

UNLOVING SPIRITS

__   __     Attention getting

__   __     Exalted “I will”

__   __     Competition

__   __     Comparison

__   __     Fabricated self

__   __     Excessive talkativeness

__   __     Selfishness

__   __     Self-absorption

__   __     Self-bitterness

__   __     Self-centered

__   __     Self-condemnation

__   __     Self-deception

__   __     Self-promotion

__   __     Self-doubt              

__   __     Self-indulgence

__   __       Self-pity               

__   __     Self-sabotage

 

UNWANTED

__   __     Abandonment

__   __     Illegitimate or Unplanned

__   __     Burden or Mistake

 

UNWORTHY

__   __     Inadequacy

__   __     Inferiority

__   __     Insecurity

__   __     Less than

__   __     Non-person

__   __     Self-Condemnation

__   __     Self-Hatred

__   __     Performance Orientation

 

VICTIM MENTALITY

__   __     Appeasement

__   __     Helplessness

__   __     Hopelessness

__   __     Looser, Defeated

__   __     Mistrust

__   __     Self-Pity

__   __     Suspicion

__   __     Trauma

 

VIOLENCE

__   __     Cruelty

__   __     Destruction

__   __     Feuding

__   __     Hatred

__   __     Murder

__   __     Retaliation

__   __     Self-Mutilation

__   __     Torture/Mutilation

__   __     Ritual Abuse

 

WITHDRAWAL

__   __       Avoidance

__   __     Blocked Emotions

__   __     Blocked Intimacy

__   __     Deaf and Dumb Spirit

__   __       Identity confusion or loss

__   __     Intimidation

__   __     Isolation

__   __     Loneliness

__   __       Passivity

__   __     Shy

__   __       Silent Treatment

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Testimony of Sexual Freedom

OK, our actions affect others.

Sometimes the simplest things cause problems one would never expect for many years to come. It’s so important to weigh out one’s actions carefully. I remember from the earliest ages…about 6 or 7 years old being put into the bathtub with a female cousin. Yes, neither my aunt nor mother thought of it too seriously. But it started something that has lasted all these years. Before I was 9, I had already experimented sexually with a girl close to my age. I didn’t have any understanding of the ramifications of our actions. We were just little kids and curious. When I was about 9 or 10, I was playing with my friends in the woods, which we did all the time. Some careless, or perhaps evil, person had littered the hillside with pornography. You can bet what a group of young boys did with that. Yes, we took them and hid them in a hollow tree and visited them many, many times. Now I was no longer innocent. I had been fully awakened. But I didn’t see the evil that I was inviting in to my life.

I asked Jesus to save me because of a visit to church camp at roughly the same time in my life,..I think it was just before we had discovered the porn on the hillside. This was Sunday, Aug 17, 1986. I will never forget that day. However, just as Christ was planting the seeds of eternal life in my soul, the devils of hell were scheming their plans for my life. As I grew up, I knew the things I had done were wrong, but something else was already inside of me, creating strong desires. I didn’t know this, of course, I just thought I was normal. 2 persons

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were developing both inside this same shell. I was rapidly learning the Scriptures, witnessing to my friends, going to church, and even preaching at a local church in my early teens. At the same time, I was acting out my desires in a personal level.

I had grown up a Free-Will Baptist, often thinking I had lost my salvation and going frequently to the altar to regain it. I was torturing myself in my spirit to try to walk good enough to merit this salvation I had originally gained as a free gift. I say the problem with Free-Will Baptists is that they don’t really try to keep the rules they believe save them. I did. I went soul-winning, studied my Bible for many hours, learned prophecy, even frequently took the flag in this very quiet church, and ran with it around the auditorium. I felt every word of the Scriptures was real. If people were going to hell, we needed to do something and God expected us to do it. But apparently, the vast majority of them didn’t quite see it that way. By my senior year in high school, I had so worn out my spirit by trying, I told God that “if salvation has to be earned, I CAN NOT DO IT. You have to save freely, I simply will never be able to do this.” And there went my Armenian views.

Now with that gone, I was still on fire for God and wanted to please Him, even if not for salvation itself. I went to a Christian College. Unfortunately, the other side of “me” went along. It had never left and was driving me in a personal, private manner. The good side of me, however, was yearning to make God happy with my life (though, again, not for salvation itself.) I often snuck out of college with a female friend, not to do any wrong, but to go soul winning around the area! I also joined a street preaching group, and we did all we could to win the people of Florida, a majority of them trapped in the Scientology cult, to the Lord. I actually had a year or so of victory of my personal sins. While I lived on my own during the summer, I was solicited by a female Sunday school member from a church I had attended. I was visiting her to see if she was coming to Sunday school, as her attendance was infrequent. Still naive, I didn’t see that the reason she invited me into her house was that her parents were not home, and she had plans. When I understood what she wanted, I quickly dismissed myself and got away as fast as I could, remembering the story of Joseph and Potiphar’s wife. Unfortunately, it re-awakened the desires I had some victory over. That was the last time I had victory of this issue.

Seeing the intense apathy of most of the people in my college, I wanted to do more. I also began listening to sermon cassette tapes (yeah, they were still around then). I had even gone on a missionary trip to France for 6 weeks over the summer not long after the event with the woman from my Sunday School class. I remember witnessing to some kids in France about being reborn…a term which in french, happens to be very similar to my interpreter’s name. I was astounded how these kids had no background whatsoever in Scripture as they said “c’est impossible!” “No one can be born twice!” Those were great times, unfortunately, something was back in me pulling me apart. So many of my thoughts were double minded and becoming more perverse.

I transferred from paradise to the ice cold frozen wasteland of the North Western USA. I was pleased to discover that EVERY person was required to be in a ministry. I quickly joined up with the bus routes and the street preaching group. Many of these men are in full time service around the world today, including one of the guys I street preached with, who is a missionary in Haiti. Because of my character, on the outside, I worked my ministry with all I could give it. I went to college full time, worked 40 hours a week or more (moving quickly up the pay-scale all the way to line foreman) and won hundreds of people to the Lord throughout. I brought hundreds of visitors to church, even one time winning a contest (in a church of thousands of people) to bring the most visitors over 6 weeks. We brought 89 visitors on our buses! The win got me an all expense paid trip to visit missionaries in the Philippines for a week. That trip was in my final year of college. I had married and had my first and second daughters. This is where the “other” me had began to show its ugly head. I could not be the person I was supposed to be, even though on the outside, I was everything the college wanted me to be and was teaching me to be. I was angry, frustrated, unloving and uncaring, driving away my wife. I was so obsessed with sex on the inside, that I could not treat her properly. She was supposed to “fix” all this…so I could be the person I wanted to be on the outside. We fought constantly as I discovered the inevitable problems this idea brought onto our marriage.

My final year in college, the same year I had won the trip to the Philippines, I had discovered that I was in no shape to be in any ministry. I had seen others act like me who had failed, caused church splits, and hurt a lot of people. I did not want to be another person like that. I became very depressed as I saw my dreams disappear that I had worked so hard to gain. I took this out even further on my wife and took the other “me” to a heightened pitch. It had never left, but now was becoming monstrous, being fueled by anger and depression.

I knew my wife would not stay around like this forever without help, so we moved closer to her family. Our arguing and fighting grew, nonetheless, and I pretty much just gave up on life, though I still weakly fought on by occasionally driving a bus for the pastor of the church we attended, the pastor being a graduate of the college from which I had just graduated. At least she had help. I didn’t want it to be this way, I just had no idea how to get out of it. We had been to counseling with so many people…pastors, assistant pastors, even a licensed Christian psychologist. Nothing had helped. I took a job driving blood specimens 2 hours away. I was so depressed and so compulsive in what was now a full blown sexual addiction, I used this freedom to try to find some fulfillment. I began searching for strip clubs, prostitutes, and porn distributors. It was not long before I had found them. My wife had never known any of my inner problems, and remained blind to all of this. The monster was now in control anytime I was out of town, sometimes even while I was doing my night time paper routes, as there are strip clubs around home, too. I literally couldn’t stop it any longer.

It felt like I lost myself and was powerless to regain my own thoughts until after the deeds were finished. During this time I still sought answers. I heard on the radio a man named Roy Masters who frequently speaks of his “meditation” in which one is encouraged to step back and see yourself apart from the mess going on your head. His intentions are good, but as I began to do them, something revealed itself to me. I then began to sense and feel a presence..even seeing in my mind’s eye, the thing(s) that were watching me (I didn’t realize at the time, compelling me) to do the things I was doing. I didn’t see them with my eyes, mind you, just inside my head. Perhaps they were the alien greys, I don’t know, because they were all bald. Their eyes were terrible, and in my night dreams, at least one of them had a third eye. I could “see” or “sense” them every time I visited a strip club or went into the area seeking a prostitute.

I wanted so badly to feel right again, to make things right in every way. I just didn’t know how. Surely I should be able to “make” it happen. I could even support myself and family for months selling newspaper subscriptions door to door. I had the character on the outside. “Why wasn’t God helping me”, I thought? I cried out to God and begged and begged for answers. God answered. First, in response to prayer, God forced me out of my out of town route. Next, God began to tell me that something was terribly wrong about my works. I began to realize that I could not please God by my works. A good friend had given me some life changing books that rewrote so much of my mind. I began to understand God as One Who doesn’t require my obedience to love me. His love never changes. I am holding back the tears as I type this here at the library just thinking about it. Imagine, God loves me just because HE IS LOVE. We transferred to a church, the one we now attend, that helped me further this understanding of God. Second, God began to show me, through our pastor’s sermons, the biblical way to love your wife, ask God for what you need, don’t fight to obtain it (as it says in the book of James.) For the first time, I was beginning to see a way out. Unfortunately, something still had power over a large part of my life.

My thinking had been terribly distorted for so long. I look back on my family pictures and I see it, not me. Every female that passed by took my eye…well, anyone one of maturity, I should say. I was not passing that barrier, thank the Lord! I was still having an occasional quick visit to a strip club….usually under 5 minutes, and was renting movies that had pornography in them to view in private. I even had a small stash very well hiddden. It tortures me to think that I could’ve been the next person littering the hillside, so to speak, for the next generation of innocent persons to find them….probably whom would’ve been my own children.

Third, we began going to Reformers Unanimous, a Christian addiction program every Friday. We’ve been going for over a year now. Though I grew more and more, there was still something missing. I still couldn’t shake the compulsions. I now have accountability, something I never had before. I quickly confess my sins, and told my pastor of my recent behaviors. We broke up my video collection in the church parking lot (inside the bag, of course) and trashed them. My attachment was finally growing weaker, but was still compulsive…still controlling my mind and it seemed I could do nothing about it.
Recently, the pastor of the mega church I attended had been arrested for sexual contact with a minor. This devastated my wife and me, but now that my wife and I are working together on these problems and she is fully knowledgeable of my past-(turned out her past she had hidden from me as well) it came with little surprise. Neither did it surprise us much to begin learning that very many of the staff of the church, the former pastor-the one I had listed to on tape and a great number of the graduates who had taken ministries, had been caught in various degrees of sexual sins. If we try to please God by our works, we will find ourselves panting for satisfaction that will never come. God ALREADY loves us, and has done the works required so His love can forever reach us!

Still suffering in my mind by uncontrollable compulsions, I began revisiting every position I thought I knew about the Bible. I began scouring the internet, reading more books, anything I could to find why my mind is still doing this. I looked at people I would never have considered in my fundamentalist ways of the past. I’ve changed several of my doctrinal views during my journey.

The worst part was that I still felt the ominous presence and could sense the evil that was lurking in the shadows. I began to watch Dr. CK Quarterman’s videos, I think from a link from somewhere, but I don’t remember for certain exactly where. I saw Dr. CK Quarterman exorcising demons. The first couple times, I honestly thought he was staging it. It didn’t really match what I thought about the devil. But then, I am in a time where I am revisiting anything I thought I knew about anything. So, I quietly observed from the side, listened in on a few conference calls, and made a few comments on Facebook.

I recently commented on face book about how I look great on the outside, but on the inside, I am struggling greatly. Dr. CK Quarterman took it up on himself to actually ask why, which no one else bothered to do. I told him everything, …kinda risking it, if you will, not totally sure if he wouldn’t do something awkward with the information. But, instead he offered to gather his group around on conference call and to command the devils that are oppressing me to leave.

Last Saturday, I called in on conference line while delivering my paper route. I had pulled over in an empty parking lot. Though I really didn’t know what to expect…would I begin vomiting, speaking in Latin…or begin convulsing uncontrollably?? I just really wasn’t sure…still not too certain what I believed about this subject to begin with. As we prayed, nothing too obvious happened, at least on the outside. But, on the inside, the same presence that I felt, I could sense its fear and pain. It didn’t want to go anywhere. It was living through me, I think. It also told me inside my head some things like “you know this isn’t going to work” and “I’m always going to be here, you know.” Also, I began to feel a physical change as something left me. For the first time in all these years, I have felt in control of my thoughts again! I feel like there is room in my head. I am free to think whatever I want. I have been several days now with no compulsion whatsoever. This has NEVER happened before. I feel very optimistic for the first time in my life…like this is what it is supposed to be like.

I finally have been able to take captive my thoughts, because compulsion didn’t rule over them. I beg that God will give me His Holy Spirit’s control and power over my life, so I can be the person I have always wanted to be. We prayed for God to protect my kids during the conference call….

I no longer want to be the person I was. Never do I want to be double minded or full of thoughts I can not control, or two minds in the same body. There are no more secrets, no more lies. Everything is being dealt with, from the doctrines, to the relationships, to the direct spiritual aspects. I am asking further prayer for my wife. She has been through so much! I was shocked the day she told me that she was going to help me through all this, no matter how long it takes. She has grown so much! We have become sweeter and more loving towards each other, and I expect even better days ahead. She is no longer an object to me. She is not there just to make me into something. That’s not what love is about. However, I am realizing the demons that attacked me are affecting her in ways she doesn’t yet understand, just as I did not understand the role they play. I have seen attacks working through her these last few days. I guess if they can’t get to me inside my head, they are going to attempt to get to me from outside my head! Pray for her, folks! God bless, y’all!

 

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Listing of Demons

Listing of Demons

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Abacus (ouija board demon)
Abaddon/Apollyon is the king of an army of locusts; Rev 9:11 – whose name in Hebrew Abaddon and then translated in Greek means the Destroyer  (Christian demonology)
Abalam / Paimon (Christian demonology)
Abezethibou involved with magic (Testament of Solomon)
Abraxas was also associated with magic and is said to be the source of the familiar term abracadabra.(Gnosticism)
Abyzou a female demon of miscarriages and infant mortality(Jewish mythology)
Achnor
Adramelech (Assyrian mythology, Christian demonology)
Aeshma  “wrath,” “rage,” and “fury (Zoroastrianism)
Agaliarept (Jewish mythology)
Agnan (Demon that torments the Americas by appearances and wickedness, it shows especially in Brazil.)
Agrat bat Mahlat / Igrat / Iggeret is responsible for magic and sickness (Jewish demonology)
Agares He can cause earthquakes and teaches languages, finding pleasure in teaching immoral expressions (Christian demonology)
Agiel (Jewish mythology)
Ahriman/Angra Mainyu / Ahriman is a destructive spirit responsible for deceptive evil thinking (Zoroastrianism)
Aim/Haborym a spirit of manipulation and a familiar spirit (Christian demonology)
Aka Manah/Akem Manah/Akoman/Akvan The demon that causes bad mind, bad will and bad act. (Zoroastrianism)
Ala (Slavic mythology)
Alal (Chaldean mythology)
Alastor (Christian demonology)
Alloces/Allocer (Christian demonology)
Allu (Akkadian mythology)
Amnra
Amaymon (Christian demonology)
Amdusias (Christian demonology)
Amy (Christian demonology)
Anamalech (Assyrian mythology)
Andhaka (Hindu mythology)
Andras (Christian demonology)
Andrealphus (Christian demonology)
Andromalius (Christian demonology)
Antichrist (Christian demonology)
Anzu (Sumerian mythology)
Armaros (Jewish demonology)
Aremenia / Al or Hal( demon in the folklore of the Caucasus, Iran, Central Asia, and southern parts of Russia.)
Armazad
Archon (Gnosticism)
Asag (Sumerian demonology)
Asakku (Babylonian mythology)
Asb’el (Jewish mythology)
Asmodai/Asmodeus (Jewish folklore and Christian mythology)
Astaroth Astarte (Ishtar)  (Christian demonology)
Asura (Hindu mythology)
Azazel / Azaz’el Azazelle (Jewish demonology)
Azi Dahaka/Dahak (Zoroastrianism)

B

Baal/Bael (Christian demonology)                                                                                                           Ba’al-Hamon (Ugaritic demonology)(“Ruler of a Crowd or Multitude”) Chief god of Carthage. He was a deity of sky and vegetation, depicted as a bearded older man with curling ram’s horns. Baʿal Hammon’s female cult partner was Tanit.
Balam (Christian demonology)
Baron (Catholic demonology)
Balberith (Jewish demonology)
Bali Raj (Hindu mythology)
Banshee (Irish mythology)
Baphomet (Christian folklore)
Barbas (Christian demonology)
Barbatos (Christian demonology)
Bakaneka
Bathin/Mathim/Bathym/Marthim (Christian demonology)
Barook
Beball (Christian demonology)
Beelzebub (Jewish demonology, Christian demonology)
Behemoth (Jewish demonology)
Belial /Belisle (Jewish demonology, Christian demonology)
Beleth (Christian demonology)
Belphegor (Christian demonology)
Berith/Beherit (Phoenician mythology, Christian demonology)
Bhūta (Sanskrit)
Bifrons (Christian demonology)
Boruta (Slavic mythology)
Botis (Christian demonology)
Buer (Christian demonology)
Bukavac (Slavic mythology)
Bune (Christian mythology)
Bushyasta (Zoroastrianism)

C

Cain/Canio
Canacjaza
Centrioles
Carabia (Christian demonology)
Charun (Etruscan mythology)
Chemosh (Moabite)
Choronzon (Thelema)
Cimejes/Kimaris/Cimeies (Christian demonology)
Corson (Christian demonology)
Crocell/Procell (Christian demonology)
Culsu (Etruscan mythology)

D

Daeva (Zoroastrianism demonology)
Dai Ko Mio (Principal demon ruler of Reiki. Also known as a Reiki master spirit who is summoned to open and connect someone to Reiki as a Reiki channel during Reiki initiations. Its symbol is the Phoenix )
Dagon (Semitic mythology)
Dajjal (Islamic demonology)
Dantalion (Christian demonology)
Danjal (Jewish mythology)
Davy Jones (nautical folklore)
Decarabia (Christian demonology)
Demiurge (Gnosticism)
Demogorgon (Christian demonology)
Devil (Christian demonology)
Diablo
Div-e Sepid (Persian mythology)
Drekavac (Slavic mythology)
Dzoavits (Native American mythology)

E

Eligos (Christian demonology)
Eisheth (Jewish demonology)
Eblis (Islamic demonology)
ethismus ( Jewish demonology)

F

Fluris
Focalor (Christian demonology)
Foras/Forcas/Forras/ (Christian demonology)
Forneus (Christian demonology) Great Marquis of Hell, and has twenty-nine legions of demons under his rule. He teaches Rhetoric and languages. He is depicted as a great sea monster.
Furcas/Forcas (Christian demonology)
Furfur (Christian demonology)

G

Gaap (Christian demonology)
Gader’el (Jewish demonology)
Gaki (Japanese mythology)
Gamigin (Christian demonology)
Ghoul (Arabian and several other mythologies)
Glasya-Labolas/Caacrinolaas/Caassimolar/Classyalabolas/Glassia-labolis (Christian demonology)
Gorgon (Greek mythology)
Gremory/Gomory (Christian demonology)
Grigori (Jewish demonology)
Gualichu (Mapuche mythology)
Guayota (Guanche)
Gusion/Gusoin/Gusoyn (Christian demonology)

H

Haagenti (Christian demonology)
Hathor (Egyptian Mythology)
Halphas/Malthus (Christian demonology)
Haures/Flauros/Flavros/Hauras/Havres (Christian demonology)
Hindi
Hon-Sha-Ze-Sho-Nen (Contacting spirit This is a second Reiki level symbol and spirit, for making contact over any distance to a person or situation)
Horus (Egyptian Mythology)

I

Ifrit (Islamic mythology)
Incubus (Christian demonology, Chaldean mythology, Jewish folklore)
Ipos/Ipes (Christian demonology)
Iblis (Islamic demonology)(Satan)
Ishtar / Astarte / Isis
Irritum (Catholic Christian demonology) means “nothingness”

J

Jeqon
Jezebel
Jinn (Islamic demonology)
Jikininki (Japanese mythology)
Juno Caelestis / Neith being a war goddess. Her symbol, found on many ancient stone carvings, appears as a trapezium (trapezoid) closed by a horizontal line at the top and surmounted in the middle by a circle: the horizontal arm is often terminated either by two short upright lines at right angles to it or by hooks

K

Kabandha/Kabhanda (Hinduism)
Kasadya (Jewish demonology)
Kokb’ael (Jewish demonology)
Kroni (Ayyavazhi demonology)
Krampus (Germanic-Christian Demonology)

L

Labal
Landis
Lastis Latiangle (Christian demonology)
Laxis
Legion (Christian demonology)
Lechies (Slavic demonology)
Legend
Leyak (Indonesian mythology)
Lempo (Finnish mythology)
Leraje/Leraie (Christian demonology)
Leviathan (Jewish demonology, Christian demonology)
Lili/Lilin/Lilim (Jewish demonology)
Lilith (Sumerian mythology, Akkadian mythology, Jewish folklore)
Lucifer (Christian demonology)
Lucifuge Rofocale (Christian demonology)

M

Malphas (Christian demonology)
Mammon (Christian demonology)
Maricha(Hindu mythology)
Marax/Morax/Foraii (Christian demonology)
Marbas (Christian demonology)
Mabley
McCoffa
Mahamaya
Majestic
Marchosias (Christian demonology)                                                                                                           Marsuvius
Masih ad-Dajjal/Ad-Dajjal/Dajjal (Islamic eschatology)
Mastema (Jewish demonology)
Mephistopheles (Christian folklore, German folklore)
Merihem (Christian demonology)
Moloch (Christian demonology)
Muin
Murmur (Christian demonology)
Mustafa (Demon Samurai)

N

Naamah (demon) (Jewish demonology)
Naberius/Cerbere/Naberus (Christian demonology)
Naphula (Christian demonology)
Necromancer
Ninurta (Sumerian mythology, Akkadian mythology)
Namtar (Sumerian mythology)
Nero (christian demonology)
Noov

O

Omnicephus
Onoskelis (Testament of Solomon)
Oray (Christian demonology)
Orcus (Roman mythology, later Christian demonology)
Orias/Oriax (Christian demonology)
Ornias (Testament of Solomon) – According to The Encyclopedia of Angels by Rosemary Guiley, Ornias is a fallen angel who, along with many other demons, had been bound by King Solomon to build his temple. He is described as very troublesome, who inhabits the constellation Aquarius, and who enjoys strangling people born under the sign of Aquarius. Ornias has various abilities attributed to him, such as the gift of prophecy, shapeshifting, and causing physical pain with a mere touch. As a shapeshifter, Ornias can often transform into a lion, a heavenly creature with wings, or a man who likes boys. Ornias was also the demon who revealed to Solomon the existence of the Falling Stars – demons that fly up towards Heaven to overhear God’s plans and fall back to Earth when they become too exhausted, making them look like shooting stars to humans.
Orobas (Christian demonology)
Ose (Christian demonology)
Ördög (Hungarian mythology)

P

Paimon (Christian demonology)
Paimonia (Christian demonology)                                                                                                                Palmetto
Park
Paymon
Pazuzu (Assyrian/Babylonian demon)
Peri
Petey
Phenex (Christian demonology)
Penemue (Jewish and Christian demonology)
Pithius
Pontiff
Preta (A ghoulish demon of Buddhist lore)
Prometheus (Greek Mythology)
Pruflas (Christian demonology)
Pruslas (Christian demonology)
Puloman (Hindu demonology)
Purson/Curson (Christian demonology)
Python

Q
R

Rah
Rahab (Jewish folklore)
Raim
Raka
Rakash
Ramael
Raul/Roul
Raum (Christian demonology)
Ronove (Christian demonology)
Ronwe (Christian demonology)
Rusalka (Slavic mythology)
Rakshasa (Hinduism)
Rangda (Hinduism)
Ravan (Hinduism)
Reaver (Greek/Roman)

S

Sabnock (Christian demonology)
Sei-He-Ki (Guiding spirit … This demon has been encountered during deliverance, with many Reikians)
Saleos (Christian demonology)
Samael / Samhel (Jewish demonology)
Satan (or Shaytan) (Jewish demonology, Christian demonology (Fallen Angel), Islamic demonology)
Salpsan (Apocryphal New Testament, Gospel of Bartholomew) – mentioned briefly as the son of Satan.
Samurai
Schlitz (Alcoholic demon)
Scox (Christian demonology)
Seir (Christian demonology)
Semyaz (Jewish demonology)
Shadow Person / Hat Man
Shale
Shax/Chax (Christian demonology) also spelled Chax, Shan, Shass, Shaz, and Scox a Great Marquis of Hell, and has power over 30 legions of demons on evil horses. He takes away the sight, hearing and understanding of any person under the conjurer’s request. He is depicted as a stork that speaks with a hoarse but subtle voice;
Shedim (Jewish folklore)
Shemal
She-Man
Sitri (Christian demonology)
Sthenno (Greek mythology)
Stolas/Solas (Christian demonology)
Succubus (Sumerian mythology, Akkadian mythology, Jewish folklore, Christian demonology)
Surgat (Christian demonology)

T

Tanit  She was equivalent to the moon-goddess Astarte, and later worshipped in Roman Carthage in her Romanized form as Dea Caelestis, Juno Caelestis or simply Caelestis   consort Ba`al Hammon. Astarte (Ishtar)  (Ugaritic demonology) Tannin (Jewish demonology)
Tjoko-Rei (the same as Dai-Ko-Myo Principal demon ruler of Reiki)

U

Ukobach (Christian demonology)
Uvall (Christian demonology)

V

Valac (Christian demonology)
Valefar/Malaphar/Malephar (Christian demonology)
Vapula (Christian demonology)
Vassago (Christian demonology)
Vepar (Christian demonology)
Vephar (Christian demonology)
Vesuvius
Vine (Christian demonology)

W

Wekufe (Mapuche Mythology)
Wendigo (Native American Mythology)
Wonderlust
Whoredoms (Hosea 4:12) (Christian demonology)
X

Xaphan (Christian demonology)
Xezbeth (demonology)

Y

Yeqon
Yeter’el

Z

Zagan (Christian demonology)
Zepar (Christian demonology)
Ziminiar (Christian demonology)
Zozo

Generic

A

Abortion
Adultery
Alcoholism
Anger
Anxiety
Automatic writing

B

Bestiality
Biting deadly sunflower
Bitterness
Black reptilian creature (small)
Black-horned devil
Blasphemy
Bondage
Burdensome spirit

C

Catholicism
Channeling spirit
Chanting devil
Confusion
Cutting
Cat demon

D

Deception
Dejection
Depression
Despair
Distrust
Doubt
Drug Addictions
Dumb spirit
Death

E

Embarrassment
Envy

F

False personality
False religion
False worships
Fatigue
Fear
Fear of future
Fear of intimacy
Flirtations
Fornication
Frustration

G

Gambling Addiction
Gray demon
Guilt

H

Hate
Headaches
Heartbreak
Heaviness
Homosexuality
Hopelessness

I

Idolatry
Incest
Infirmity
Irritability
Insecurity

J
Jealousy

K

L

Lack of self-worth
Large-muscular horned demon
Lasciviousness
Lesbian spirit
Lewdness
Loneliness
Lust
Lying spirit

M

Masturbation
Memory loss spirit
Men hater
Mental illness
Mental imagine
Mind blocking spirit
Molestation
Murder
Mute spirit

N

O

Occultism

P

Paranoia
Passivity
Personality disorders
Perversion
Pessimism
Phoenos
Poor self-image
Pornography
Pride
Prostitution

Q

R

Rage
Rebellion
Red-eyed growling demon
Rejection
Resentment
Restlessness
Retaliation
Rotten fruit

S

Sadness
Schizophrenia
Seducing spirit
Self-abuse
Self-bondage
Self-loathing
Self-willedness
Shadows
Shame
Sorrow
Spirit husband
Spirit of improper thoughts
Suicide
Suspicion

T

Temper
Timidity
Torment
Tourettes

U

Unbelief
Unfaithfulness
Unforgiveness
Unrobing spirit

V

Vengeance

W

Wantonness
Wickedness
Witchcraft
Withdrawal

 

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Renewed In Christ

The ominous presence has been removed.

The things I was seeing in my mind and feeling around me are gone now. We prayed and then commanded them to leave with all the evil that surrounds them. I don’t want them anymore in my life. No more double-mindedness…no more lies…no more evil. I just want to be filled with the Holy Spirit and rejoice. Oh God, keep it away for good and help me to live in Christ.

I will no longer be two people…the one on the outside and the one insatiable monster on the inside. I will be God’s child, and live on all fronts in His peace.

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Demon Chaser

Its time for us Christians who have wholeheartedly committed our lives to fulfilling Gods will for us, trusting and following Our Lord completely…

To get to work by making an impact with others…A Prime example is to follow in the footsteps of our fellow Christian, Leader, Teacher, Demon Chaser and True Friend, Dr. CK Quarterman ( while simultaneously eating the dust behind his trail..LOL ) by taking Action and witnessing to anyone and everyone the good news of having a personal eternal relationship with Jesus Christ.. Dr. CK Quarterman is a prime example of a True Shepherd of our Lord..as I read earlier and mentioned to him..” A True Shepherd of Our Lord is someone who doesn’t just show the way..It is Someone that is Actually LEADING the way!!” . We all know us humans learn by example and that’s what we need to do.. That’s what God wants us to do Now!!

Sharing the sinners salvation prayer and SAVING lives one at a time… Thus ” Hope For America ” !! Great video(s)…and vital material for the foundation of Christianity as well as Life’s Challenges along with many supporting Bible verses..as Jesus is our Rock, our foundation !!

We need to Stand proud and make a difference especially during these troublesome days!!
Prior to posting this, as I was praying, I asked our Lord to please give me words that would speak to All of us/Encourage us…as we have NOTHING to fear..we know our Lord will never forsake us and is always by our side !! I received an amazing scripture which I believe speaks very clearly to All of us Christians willing to stir up some dust in our tracks ..Witnessing and Saving Lives….Like Dr. CK Quarterman , not to mention making our Father God Proud…

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Word of Praise

Wanted to let you know I am doing much better today, Praises to the LORD!!

I was tired after the session but the heaviness had been lifted; calm and peaceful and I was vibrating from head to toe when I laid down into the bed. Before I did I had gone to

Jesus

Kingdom forum where we have a group chatting together and I burst out in Love and Praise. Declaring His Glorious Majesty in our lives. With all Love, appreciation, thankfulness and gratefulness for what HE has done in my life. Praise Jesus in His precious and Holy name. Amen

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